Sorry, Tersie. I did not realize that you joined. I have been MIA because, well, I'm a wimp. LOL. Anyway, I am "starting over" too. Again. LOL. I just wrote a blog entry about this. I think that have too many personal fears to actually be successful. How about you? What scares you about getting healthy?

Now THAT's a workout!! An hour on my bike, pedaling hard. I was winded when I was done. It felt great. I need to do that more often! The Tour de France has inspired me!! ;)

okay, I'm losing again. I need to get more active.

I feel like I'm not getting a lot of support here. Maybe I'm not looking in the right places. Maybe I'm not getting enough support or motivation from the source that matters the most ... MYSELF.

I went for a walk today. I'm getting my head screwed on straight. I've got a lot on my mind lately. My personal life is a shambles. You'd think if I could at least get a handle on my diet and exercise at least I'd feel like I have some control over SOMETHING in my life. I feel so out of control with everything else.

But like I said, I went for a walk today. I'm drinking my water. It's a start.

Hi Tersie,

I'm interested in getting a terrier so was wondering where you got yours from (breeder vs pet shop) and the costs. i was in a pet shop the other day and they are trying to sell dogs for over 2 grand and i am also iffy about the fact that the dogs may come from puppy mills. does your cairn terrier ever go swimming or biking?

Hey, saw your profile pic. You own a yorkshire terrier? Are they any good for exercising w/
Thanks in advance for your reply.

I'm not exercising!

I'm struggling to eat well!

I was off to a great start. And it's all crashing down around me. I'm trying. I've had nothing but healthy food today. But there's always a danger of veering way off course at some point before my head hits the pillow each night.

I think I need to reevaluate my reasons for wanting to do this. There's no point in trying to do something if you don't have a good reason for wanting to reach those goals.

Now ... what are my reasons behind my goals? What are my goals to begin with?

Looks like I have a lot of thinking to do!

Wow, I've lost 9 pounds in my first week back at really giving a hairy rat's behind about myself. Part of that is a fluke. I had pizza with tons of sodium the night before my first weigh-in. I can retain water better than any sponge I know, so much of the initial 9 pounds was water weight (if not all of it!) But the end result is I feel better! I really do. Now I just need to hold on to this feeling, keep working towards my goals. Believe in myself. Be strong - and GET STRONGER! :)

Today I\'m feeling the after effects of yesterday\'s weight training. It\'s not too painful. Just a little reminder that I\'d better continue to eat right or else all that hard work will be for nothing!! ;)

I started the day with some weight training with my 5 lb dumbbells. I feel pretty good. I did the following:

dumbbell rows (2 sets of 15)
pushups (girlie style) (2 sets of 12)
dumbbell shoulder press (2 sets of 15)
standing calf raises (2 sets of 15)
dumbbell curls (2 sets of 15)
overhead dumbbell extensions (2 sets of 15)
dumbbell squats (2 sets of 15)
stiff-legged deadlifts with dumbbells (2 sets of 15)

I need to go take care of an accounting error on the YMCA\'s part after work today. They tried to take a monthly payment out of a checking account that I closed after I told them TWICE to take it out of a new account. grrrr. While I\'m there I might as well get some cardio in! I may burn off some steam that is sure to build up while I try to figure out why they can\'t get the accounting figured out.

Okay, so I\'m steadily losing weight, which is good. But My body fat % is going up. To fix that I need to eat more protein (yuk) and EXERCISE - which MUST MUST MUST include weight training!!

The protein part is hard. I\'m not a meat eater. I\'ll eat your occassional chicken or fish (but the fish ONLY because I know I need the omega-3 oils - I hate the taste of fish. Blegh). Anyway. I\'ve got some protein powder that I can mix with skim milk. But I need to buy some milk. Yeah, I\'m not much of a dairy person either! So how did I gain all of this weight??? The answer ... I\'m a sugar addict! Terrible! I\'ve seriously cut back on my overly processed carbs the past couple of days and I feel very good. I need to keep moving forward.

Here\'s to a great today!

Yesterday was a good day, diet-wise. I had a healthy breakfast and lunch, then was invited out to dinner and a movie with friends. We went to a restaurant that doesn\'t have a whole lot of healthy options, but I got the healthiest salad I could find on the menu - and it was tasty too! At the movies, I had NO popcorn or other sugary snacks - go me go! Then after the movies we went out for coffee. I had a \"skinny\" cappuccino and avoided all the delicious looking baked goods they had to offer.

My only downfall was that I was planning on some exercise after work. I went straight from work to out with friends and didn\'t get home until well after 10 p.m. No exercise for me yesterday at all. Hopefully I can make up for it today!

So today marks \"Day One\" for the 50-millionth time. How many times can I start over? I ask myself this question every time I start over. I guess continually starting over is better than not trying at all. Let\'s see if I can make this the last time that I start over ...